From Jenna

My Crossroads
August 20,2006
I was watching a Beth Moore Video from her "Believing God" bible study, last Sunday morning at Farmingdale Baptist. I was flooded with wonderful memories. I went through "Believing God" about 5 years ago. Beth Moore is amazing to say the least. But, my God, (As Chris Tomlin sings it so well) is Indescribable! For those of you who do not know my testimony, (I will give you the very short version). I was saved at age 7. I grew up in church all my life and was raised in a loving christian family. I knew God Exsisted. I knew He sent His Son to die on the cross and save us from our sins. I knew I was going to heaven. I knew and even followed all the rules to be the "good christian girl". I even married a minister! And who seemed like a perfect one at that! I had a good life. But I was not satisfied. I was empty and did not understand why. I began living to please myself. Nothing Else Mattered. I bought every lie Satan fed me. Satan came to steal, kill and destroy me......and he almost succeeded! My life fell apart. I was standing at a crossroads. I realized I had a choice to make. To believe the God of my past. A God made up of perceptions I had learned along the way, or the God of the bible. Because the God I perceived could not deliver me! I will never forget laying on my bed, sobbing uncontrollably to the Lord, asking Him to Help me Believe! And my life has never been the same since. I know my God is who He says HE is, and HE can do what He says HE can do. He still performs miracles. He did a miracle in my life and marriage. And I am no longer empty, for He satisfies. We have to know whom we believe, so that we are persuaded that HE IS ABLE!! Wow!
In His Grace,
Jenna